i think there’s a part of me that will always struggle with my ugliness. i have had a poor body image for nearly my entire life. once i was old enough to figure out that i didn’t resemble the other children, i felt a great shame. that shame has never quite gone away although there are times that i’m at least able to forget myself… and then i’m okay.

but it is what it is and it would be remiss of me not to acknowledge the handful of people in my life who love and appreciate me for who i am. i’m not much of anything when all’s said and done but i do appreciate your kindness. you know who you are, and i love you for it.

23 thoughts on “Self

  1. It makes me sad to read this. We put so much emphasis on what we look like. What is important is who we are inside. You are such an amazing person. You are married to my best friend who thinks you are the most important person in the world and that makes you pretty special to me. We all think we are lacking in some respect. We think we are too short, too tall, too fat, too thin…. We are never satisfied. Who we are inside is what makes us who we are. Always believe in yourself because you are an individual and have so much to offer. Anyone who doesn’t accept you and l

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  2. People used to comment on how impressed they were that my son wasn’t like the other kids – he never used words like “fat”, “ugly” or “stupid”. More people should be like that. Blending in can be very overrated. 😉

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  3. Tony, please know that, for what it’s worth, I would never look at this portrait and say, “That is a portrait of an ugly person!” More to the point, I can’t recall exactly what my first impression of your avatar was, but becoming acquainted with your beautiful personality has ensured that, should I ever encounter someone who looks like you, I will be more likely to try and get to know them than to run the other way (like I usually do:).

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  4. Your candor, perspective, talent, intelligence and humor are beautiful. Most who are physically beautiful may have no more than that. Your white tipped wings make moonlight envious. Most would sell their beautiful children for an ounce of the snuff that makes your phantasmagorical stuff.

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    1. which is why we ugly folk need more people like you in the world. you just naturally sidestep the erroneous beauty paradigm that society has always held up in some way, shape or form… and that is such a breath of fresh air!

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      1. When young i wore a patch for a laxy eye. My best friend was a beauty. When teens she became embarassed, when I became prettier she wanted me again. I learned early these follies and have only ever been able to love a person for their soul. Nothing less, nothing more, eat all the apple, swallow and keep the cores that’s real .

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      2. that’s a beautiful philosophy to live by… and sounds like it was hard won. i’m still learning this lesson at 43. i’m sure i’ll get there in the end. 😛


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